You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe...

"So deeply affected by love as to be unable to act normally. It may be reciprocated or unreciprocated.
When it comes to studies or work, you get distracted and misfocus easily cos the face of your crush appears in your mind every millisecond.
Your mind is preoccupied with thoughts of s/he.
You will eventually begin to find it hard to enjoy your everyday life and would rather be alone and think of s/he.
Slowly, your social life and you school/work life will be affected.
You will be more interested in the person's life more than the lives of the people around you, in fact, your 99.999% of your mind is filled with thoughts of him/her.
Whenever you are out of your house, you will hope to see him/her. Unknowingly, after your work/school, you will appear at places where both of you met or the places where you think s/he might have a higher possibility of appearing.
You begin to be very conscious about your every move and seem to be always smiling when you are near him.
If you admire him from afar, you may rehearse the moments when both your eyes are met.
You will begin to have a terribe habit of trying to "overananalyzing" the person's every move, finding evidence that s/he is secretly in love with you too.
When you start to think that s/he might not even know your existence or might not even like you a tiny puny bit, you become unreasonably depressed.When it comes to studies or work, you get distracted and misfocus easily cos the face of your crush appears in your mind every millisecond.
Your mind is preoccupied with thoughts of s/he.
You will eventually begin to find it hard to enjoy your everyday life and would rather be alone and think of s/he.
Slowly, your social life and you school/work life will be affected.
You will be more interested in the person's life more than the lives of the people around you, in fact, your 99.999% of your mind is filled with thoughts of him/her.
Whenever you are out of your house, you will hope to see him/her. Unknowingly, after your work/school, you will appear at places where both of you met or the places where you think s/he might have a higher possibility of appearing.
You begin to be very conscious about your every move and seem to be always smiling when you are near him.
If you admire him from afar, you may rehearse the moments when both your eyes are met.
You will begin to have a terribe habit of trying to "overananalyzing" the person's every move, finding evidence that s/he is secretly in love with you too.
When you start to think that s/he might not even know your existence or might not even like you a tiny puny bit, you become unreasonably depressed.
One-track-mind.
You start to lose concentration on many things and find it hard to make decsions in everyday life.
Sally is lovesick; all she thinks about is Samuel and neglected her friend's presence." ~ urbandictionary.com

It's uncanny how well I fit into this definition. ;-)

Sigh.....

I am so hopeless/helpless. I find myself thinking about him almost all the time, reveling in the time we spend together, longing for his embrace.

At the risk of driving everyone crazy I do think I shall continue to gush. I know all my friends think I'm an id10t and if they aren't verbalizing it, they most likely are thinking it. Surprisingly enough the only comments I've really gotten are "I don't wanna see you get hurt" and "Just be careful." Like I would be anything but careful. As I told myself earlier, I think we're both on the same page at the moment, granted that the page he's on isn't the one I want to be on but, we're on the same page none the less.

I can't believe I'm saying this but I can't wait for things to change (for obvious reasons). Who knows....maybe history will repeat itself (it tends to in most areas of life).

<3

The Ramblings of a lonely heart <3

Soooo.....Our homecoming dance was last night (the game was last Friday 10/16). Yeah I know it's weird that it's so late and it's weird that the dance isn't the same weekend as the game but there's really nothing I can do to change that now is there. =)

Ok so 1st off let me be the first to say Homecoming is NOT the place to go to forget your single. Unlike my very wise cousin, I do enjoy going and getting a dress and getting my hair, makeup, and nails done (although I usually do my hair, makeup, and nails myself or at least have my mom help me). I actually enjoy all of that. What I do not enjoy is the never subtle reminder that no I do not in fact have a boyfriend and yes the guy I like is taken. =/

The dance was still awesome though. My friends and I had a great time and the music wasn't half bad....Ok let me rephrase that: the music played wasn't that bad.....the DJ seriously needed to play more good songs. There was no Don't Stop Believin' or Livin' on a Prayer not even Thriller was played =( O well maybe for Snowball (aka winter formal).

One of the worst parts of the night was seeing, correction being forced to see, the grind line composed enitrely of freshmen girls.........EWWWWWW!!!!!! Add that to the fact that 6/8 of center court was filled with grinding. It was disgusting. Maybe that's just my view because I don't have a boyfriend, but in all seriuosness it's GROSS!!!

As I mentioned before, Homcoming is not the place to forget your single, unless of course you're in the arms of the one you love. <3 face ="]">

Ok I'll stop for Savannah's (not to mention Gretchen and Rebecca's) cause I'm sure she (they) is/are cringing as she/they read(s) this but I honestly can't help myself =)

Inspiration Comes in the most odd shaped packages.

Yeah I know, I know this is a weird subject for me to be blogging about all things considered but I feel there a a few people I need to thank, one in particular who will acutally read this so here goes.

Savannah: You absolutly amaze me doll. With everything you're going through you still manage to keep a smile on that georgous face of yours, a positive outlook in your brilliant mind, love in your heart, and most of all........you have the most unwavering faith I think I've ever seen. I wish I could me more like you, strong in the face of adversity and trying times. Heck I just fold in on myself and retreat. You take the bull by the horns and conquer. Thanks for always being there to lend an ear, a comforting word, and oh yeah....thanks for making me laugh. =) I love you so much and I wish I could see you more (everyday would be nice). I can't wait for Xmas break!! Hang in there and stay strong (I have no doubt that you will). I LOVE YOU!!!

Rebecca: My twin. You keep my going through the long monotonous school days and do ur best to keep my spirits up when I'm at home no matter how obstinate I can be. I would be so lost without you as my friend. ILY!

Gretchen: I know I joke with you about a variety of things, but you always take it so well. Thanks for making me laugh and forcing me to smile. My life would be dramatically different without you in it. ILY!

Honestly that is my list. Out of the three, Savannah is the only one who will probably read this without being prompted. I honestly don't know what I'd do without these three amazing people in my life. I love you all!