Life Lessons, ETC.

First day of Senior Year......what an adventure. As it is, I really like my classes, that is I like what I've seen of them. AP English is somewhat intimidating, not so much the teacher as the workload. Honors Calc seems like it will be an ok class provided my teacher's teaching style fits my needs (please don't ask what those needs are cause I don't even know). The only downer about math is my teacher's seating chart puts me in the back right corner of the room =(. I have a feeling AP Bio is going to be one of my favorite classes of the year! I love my teacher and I love biology in general so I am really looking forward to it. Lunch is absolutly amazing........and no that is not becuase I don't have to sit and learn. It's becuase I get to spend lunch with my BFFFFFFF's and I now get to sit in the Senior cafeteria on the 6th floor!!! AP German is well....German. My teacher wouldn't stop talking in German the entire period; but I guess that is to be expected seeing as it is AP German. Health is the one class I think I'm going to dread but more about that later. So far my favorite class (other than AP Bio) is Evening Theatre Company. Our play this semester is The Somewhat True Story of Robin Hood (or something along those lines, Robin Hood nonetheless). It is going to have a midevil set and costumes coupled with what my teacher calls "Oldies" music (meaning "The Four Seasons"). So all in all a good first day.


Life Lesson: Now for the life lesson section of today's post. I suppose this isn't so much a life lesson as a common sense thing, but if your me it could be both. *Do NOT under any circumstances attempt to hit your thumb or finger with a hammer, even on accident (yes I know that seems very stupid to say). If you do, your thumb/finger will hurt for the next 12ish hours and be sensitive to the touch at the spot where you hit it.* Agian, I know this seems like a stupid thing to post as a life lesson, but after experiencing it Saturday afternoon I thought it was worth mentioning.


Health Class: As promised; more about Health Class. It is so insanely boring that I think I will want to cry later on in the semester. Granted that today was all formalities (rules, guidelines, yadda yadda yadda) but still! So for homework, our teacher gave us a student record sheet to fill out. Naturally it had questions about ourselves on it. However, these were not the usual name, phone number, partent's name and number type of questions. These were thought provoking questions that caused you to delve into your brain to find the answer (at least they were for me. Who knows....maybe I'm over analysing my health homework of all things). It really got me thinking as to what impovements I would like to see in my life and made me realize how far I've come since my first day of high school. Who knew Health class could be so deep.

Philosophy on Life: Right now, my philosophy for the school year is as follows: an episode a day. And no that does not mean a mental breakdown every day. What it means is every day after I get my homework done, I can sit down and watch an episode or two of Charmed. However, that is not the only philosophy I have come up with recently. When I was doing my English homework today, I really connected with the poem we were assigned to read ("The Waking" by Theodore Roethke). "This shaking keeps me steady. I should know. What falls away is always. And is near. I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow. I learn by going where I have to go" (Roethke). This is the last verse of the poem but it has so much underlying potency it's ridiculous. Just the subliminal message that the only way to truly learn is by taking life slow and learning from experience is so striking. Then my mom found this verse: "The Lord Says 'I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you'" (Psalm 32: 8-9). I read/hear these verses and wonder "what the He** have I done with my life? How have I lost my faith and somehow managed to muddle through these last five or so years the way I have?" My life has been so messed up with so many twists and turns that it doesnt make sense for this to be to path set before me by the Lord. I just wish there were some "get out of jail free" card for this kinda stuff. I wish there was a shortcut that would put me on a more stable path and restore my faith at the same time. I just wish my life was different and I know how impossible that is; this passage proves that. If there was an easier path for me to travel down in life that would allow me to be as strong as I am I have no doubt that God would've put me on it. I guess for now I have to resort back to my "everything happens for a reason" and remember that with faith and resilliance everything will turn out as it should.....it just takes time.

Just let me hold you while your falling apart

Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down

Fall on me

Tell me Everything you want me to be

Forever with you

Forever in me

Ever the same

~ Ever the Same by Rob Thomas

Blessed be your name

On the road marked with suffering

Though there's pain in the offering

Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out

I'll turn back to praise

When the darkness closes in, Lord

Still I will say

Blessed by the name of the Lord

Blessed be your name

~ Blessed Be Your Name by Matt Redman

The Joys of a New Haircut!

Ok so once again I am being a major procrastonator! Right now I should be outlining the final chapter of my biology homework or reading/journaling my english homework but I've already outlined one chaper today and journaled most of one book so I think I deserve to reward myself with some episodes of season 2 of Charmed.

So I got my hair-cut today and I am absolutly in love with it. I took in a picture of Phoebe's (Alyssa Milano) hair in season five of Charmed and my hair turned out almost exactly like the picture! So needless to say I am so so so so so so SO pshched! I didnt think my hair would be able to do that style and still look good with my face but I was wrong....and boy am I happy about it. The bangs even work well!
Tis amazing what a new haircut will do for your outlook on life, at least for a day or so. I feel completely rejuvinated and much better about starting school and for that matter starting SENIOR YEAR on the right foot.

Well I really dont know what else to say so I guess its chaio for now!

Randomness rule!

Well for starters I am in desperate need of new running/walking shoes. I need to start walking everyday for like 10-20 minutes. As my mother keeps pointing out, the only way I'm gonna loose the weight I have gained this summer is by walking and drinking water so now I am on a mission to walk every day except for friday (bootcamp) and drink lots of water and possibly cut out the diet cokes for a week or maybe even a month depending on how it goes.

So today I am on a mission to get to Marshalls or TJ Maxx or even both because one way or another I am going to get in my 10-20 minutes of walking today and tomorrow!

Right now I am at my Dad's house waiting for his wife to come home so I can get my dad to take me to marshalls/tj maxx. I am really bored and I need to read crime and punishment as well as pride and predjudice but that really doesnt sound appealing at the moment. Unforutately, I have one week left to finish both books as well as finish outlining 3.5 chapeters of my AP Bio book for the test the first week of school.....the outlines are due the first day of school.....o joy!

Well I suppose I should go attempt to read since as I said, I have exactly one week to finish two books and 3.5 chapters of bio! I guess I'll tackle both books at the same time and see how it goes and I'll do some more outlining tonight during a movie or something.

Until later......

What I should be doing.....

Well, lets see. There are mutliple things I should be doing. For starters I should be either outlining my biology chapters or reading Crime and Punishment or Pride and Predjudice and taking notes on either one of the books. I should also be keeping a better watch on the laundry.
Instead, I am watcing season 2 of Charmed from the beginning and blogging; all while contemplating the true meaning of the word father (dad).

In my mind, a father should be somebody who is always there for you, supportive, a shoulder to cry on, compassionate, responsible, loving, not too strong tempered, understanding, yadda yadda yadda.

Unfortunately I got saddled with: irresponsible, lazy, negligent, inconsiderate, short tempered, sometimes has an ear to lend, thinks mostly about himself/self-centered, and so on and so forth.

I would get into details, however seeing as this is a blog on the internet I don't think that's a very good idea. If you really want dets, well then that's too bad......jk.

GAH!!!! I hate this situation! The only one who I know of who could relate is my fav cuz but other than that I feel utterly alone. Stupid fatherly figures!

I'll try to blog more later when I can think straight without my eyes feeling like they are going to well up with tears.

Daily Defintion

So I was sitting around my house pining for this guy who I like and I started wondering what the definition of "Boy" was because I had pleanty of my own. I found several defintions via the internet.


Dictionary.com: "Boy"
1. a male child, from birth to full growth esp. one less than 18 years of age
2. a young man who lack maturity, judgement, etc.


Urbandictionary.com: "Boy"
1. a male, man; opposite of female, woman


Now for my definition!
Boy:
immature, irresponsible, jerks, lazy, cocky, arrogant, one word responses, slow to respond, ignorant, ignores you, unreliable, at times wishy washy, beat around the bush, georgeous, make you swoon, inappropriate/dirty minded, sometimes sentimental, makes you emotionally tired, makes you feel like breaking electronics, o so frusterating, ...
......in short, a BOY

You may be wondering why I decided to make the word BOY the subject of my new daily definitions. Well as i mentioned earlier, the guy I like has me pining for him. He won't talk to me and it's really Uber frusterating! I know I should really give up on this guy but as i mentioned in an earlier post, I really like this guy and I can't make my heart (or maybe its my head) stop liking him. He is a great friend and I wish it could be more but I have a feeling it never will be.

I guess one way to help myself would be to stop watching movies and tv shows that have romantic themes. Twilight would be such a movie. I was watching it with my cousins and i couldn't help but think of him. At this moment in time, I'm watching my all time favorite tv show in the world...Charmed......and it is thickly laced with romantic themes. From Prue and Andy to Piper and Leo the romantic themes just keep jumping out at me. O well!

I had a blast in Louisville with my Grandparents and my cousins...I hadn't seen my cousins in about 9-10 years and boy did we have fun! We went swimming at the pool everyday and Savannah and I got our nails dones and we just hung out and chillaxed and had an all around great time! I haven't seen them since august 9 and it seems like forever!

Well it's getting late and I'm getting more and more tired by the minute so I'm gonna "sign off" and try to write more tomorrow!

~ Night ~